sad story from me :'(

today (9/5/11)
tomorrow (10/5/2011) .

my sweetheart will leave me for 2 years :'( i named he mushuk . mushuk will enter to National Service (NS) tomorrow . why 2 years ? because he's singaporean . he make me sad . so sad :(  i'm gonna miss u sayang :( everynight i cried . when i see ur picture while listening tis fucking sad music : 

yess , before i sleep , its look like a routine tat i must do it before i sleep . then i will cry . must cry :'( i dont know why am i so touched . yeah maybe because i love you fucking much . mushuk , u know what . i miss ur voice , i miss ur laugh , i miss ur tears when it drop at ur cute face , i miss when the the time u scold me , i miss when u sing a song , i miss ur pot pet pot pet , and i miss everything that u did to me :'( n now , im still crying . 2 years is too long . anything can happen . so im afraid that one day we will not as one :'( mushuk , i will always thinking of u no matter what happen . i will . hold my word . n now im going study in form 6 at sekolah dato' . yeah , i know u're very worry . because combined boys and girls rite ? but sayang , no worries . u must trust me . im loyal person :) mushuk , i will always keep ur shirt properly . n every night before i sleep , i always hug n kiss ur shirt . i love to smell it :) best . mushuk , i miss our moment tat we had webcam on the pc together , calling on the phone , texting , miscall when out of credit . hehe . so sweet :) n now , all gone . i must wait for 2 years to get back the memories :( so sad sayang . yeah im crying again n again :'( n i will not forget our night wishes . every night rite . like a must . hehe :) then it must be same all the time rite . haha . like cannot miss some word . haha . now u cant wish me . but i can wish u even u cant read :'( mushuk , seriously i cant live without u by my side :( i need u . now i cant share my problems/story with u , i cant scold u , i cant disturb u , i cant make u smile when u woke up in the morning , and i cant heard ur story/problems . mushuk , i love and miss u fucking much . . . 


kayh , i dont know what to say anymore :( thats all for me :( 


to my Muhd Huzaifah bin Mohd Rasid , taking care , dont be naugthy , listen to your leader/president , take ur body health , be a discipline boy , dont ever ever forget me , and keep our love in your heart . dont keep on ur mind . because easy to forget , but heart will not :( 

oh yah , before im going to leave tis entry . tis is one of our picture even it just edited :)

we love to do 'lidah lidah' n 'muncung muncung' :)

and this is the one i like . actually byk , but mls lah nak upload byk byk kan . tak perlu menunjuk :) tahu lah die handsome && cute :) wee .

and and this is me :) hehe , nak jugak upload kann . biasalah gedik kan :P

homaigod :( actually i got 1 pics that i did it with a sad face n hold my cell phone with a mushuk pics . but then i cant google where is it :( its okay , i'll find it soon .


okay bye bye :( 


lots of love,
    tasha.

happy ;)

oh yeah , im happy now . . sebab sebab ? of course lahh sebab blog i nihh . dulu mmg mcm p*ki , but now , okay lahh . sedap mata memandang . HAHA . itupun dgn berkat kwn i ;) ececece , hehe . mention name sikid lahh , nahh . Nur Hidayah Bt Ishak . hehe . full name terus :) thanks alot kayh dayah . really appreciate ;) if not , blog nih dah mcm haram dah . lol . then take a time for update sikit sikit to make nice :) just nice to see  . okays , nih nak tunjuk sikid muka happy bila blog dah baik pulih >,<

tadaa , penat cari picture ala ala happy . tp tak melampau sgt . actually ada , tp mls pulak . mcm hodoh sgt jer , melampau kod . lol . okay lahh nih , janji senyum nmpak gigi then peace :) yeah , actually saja nak upload picture , klw tak upload pun tak pa kan . saja nak flood kan entry nihh ;) wee . k dah pjg sgt caption nih . kbye <3

okayy , dah habis cerita for this entry :) next entry coming soon yeah (biasalah lazy girl kann) so mmg lahh bertahun sikid ;) hikhik . kbye .

damn ! fuck ! shit !

bodoh ! macam mana blog aku bole jd mcm nihh ! err , kim*k si*l ! frust aku buat . da lah take a long time . susah ! lembap ! bab* uhh !!! fed up !

pet pot pet pot :)

hello sayanggs ;) oh yeah , so long rasanya i tak update entry nih . haha . mcm da malas . tak tahu nak cerita apa kann ;) hihi . oh btw , na sambung sikid story pasal lesen kereta tuh . hihi . so well , i'm passed ;) i got P now . hihi . sadly , still cant drive alone . parents mesti ada klw nak drive :( oh men , bila nak dating & lepak-ing sendiri nih . hihi . actually da lama tau dpt P (23/3/11) lama kann -.- it's okay , i dont mind ;) maybe parents still love me . takut apa apa terjadi kann :) okay , nak cerita siki experience time tuh , even dah lama . hihi . that time , i betul betul rasa happy bila dpt uncle JPJ yg bapak sporting . haha . dia memang non-stop lah berbual . tuh yg best :) first , masuk kereta , bg salam (islam kan) then duduk jp , (betulkan apa apa yg patut) uncle tuh pun mulalah ceritanya :

• uncle : waalaikumussalam , okayy . masuk . (while checking my resume)
• me     : hihi (senyum senyum kambing) . while test semua mirror , signal , lamp , wiper , horn , setting the sit n buckle up the belt ;) 
• uncle : still checking . and suddenly , he surprised me . haha . he  asked me , siapa suruh check semua tuh dulu ? amboi excited yerr . haha . okay tak pe , go on . 
• me     : hahahaha (laughing) sorry , ingat dah boleh buat ;)
• uncle : haha (laughing) eh , tak pe lahh . okay da bole jalan .
• me     : dupp dappp duupp daapp (scary) n yeah , the car pun jalan . haha . (senyum senyum)
• uncle : ehh saya pelik tengok awk nih , dari tadi senyum , ketawa . tak takut ker ? 
• me     : (dlm hati , hoii , takut ler nii . nervous ni tau . saja step happy) ehh , tak lahh , buat apa nak takut , apa yg da belajar , saya buat jer lahh (senyum senyum) hihi .
• uncle : smiling . okayy , bagus . saya suka cara awk :) 
• me     : (berbunga bunga dlm hati wehh) hahaha . then time stop kat simpang keluar , as per normal , i telah pun masuk road org . haha . memang sengal . 
• uncle : ehhh awk nii , da masuk road org tuh , hais . ni nak potong markah ni . first2 dah spoil .
• me     : (pehh , bodoh seh aku) ehh , alaaa . tak nakk laaa .please . . bg chance laaa unclee (merayu sambil gedik . wee . sengal)
• uncle : smiling . okay okay , saya bg chance . dah bwk jer , saya nak tidur .
• me     : (laughing) ehh , jgn lah tidur eak . tengok lahh .
• uncle : ala bwk jer , saya percaya awk . saya penat ni . (smiling) *even i tgh drive , i nmpk laa .
• me     : (dlm hati , giler happy . tak de lah dia nmpk salah nanti . hihi) smiling jer lahh :)
• uncle : (time berhenti kat traffic light . uncle tuh pun celik) ehh , signal mana tasha ? handbrake tarik ea . .
• me     : ehh , tadi tidur , hahaha (laughing) sorry sorry .(while on signal n tarik handbrake) .
• uncle : uncle saja jer tidur . (smiling) oh yer tasha , awk duduk mana ? sekolah ?
• me     : muar lahh . sekolah convent :)
• uncle : ouh convent . mesti student dia pandai speaking kann (well, mmg dah biase dgr statement tu) 
• me     : (laughing) alah , tak de nya . biasa jer . depends hari la . 
• uncle : ohh yeker . bagus kann . tp uncle dengar cerita , convent ni byk less kan ?
• me     : (shy) errr , eh , emm bole lah kod (laughing)
• uncle : sebab uncle selalu dengar kes pasal convent ni . tasha tak mcm tu kan ?
• me     : ohh . nta lahh uncle , tak tahu sangat . ade mmg ade . woo , tak lahh , dosa youu (laughing)
• uncle : bagus bagus . uncle tahu tasha tak mcm tu . muka pun baik baik jer nii while smiling :)
• me     : (laughing) ehh , mana ade . uncle mana tahu . (dlm hati , oh yess , well mmg baik pun)
• uncle : baguslah klw tasha tak terlibat :) so trial mcm mane hari tu ?
• me     : (oh shitt . dia tanya trial lah pulak) just smiling . ohh not bad , ade lah 4A (penipu betul . hahaha)
• uncle : wahh , tahniah . pandai . bole jadi menantu uncle nii . muka pun cantik , dress up da mcm kerja bank . (laughing) then apply mane ?
• me     : (laughing non-stop) :D ehhhh uncle nii , ke situ pulak . mane ade . saya biasa je lahh . pehh apa lahh uncle (laughing) apply jer semua :)
• uncle : (laughing) ohh , insyaallah awk dapat :)
• me     : (laughing) emm mudah mudahan :)
• uncle : awk brapa adik beradik nii ? parents kerja ?
• me     : saya sorang jer (smiling) kerja . 
• uncle : ya Allah , awk sorang jer ? mcm tak percaye pulak . patutlah awk nmpak mcm budak budak sikid . mesti manje kat rumah ni . mintak ape pun mesti dapat kan ?
• me     : (laughing) ehh , tak de lah . selalu jugak kena marah . degil kann . hahaha . tak de lah dapat selalu (malu dlm hati)
• uncle : alah tapi tak la teruk kena marah kan . tipu lah tak dpt selalu :)
• me     : pernah jugak lah . hihi . ehh , betul :)
• uncle : habis selalu rapat dgn sapa ?
• me     : (smiling) dgn ayh :)
• uncle : waa , mesti manje dgn ayh ni kan .
• me     : hehehe . bole lahh jugak . suka share everything dgn ayh :)
• uncle : oh yeker , bagus lah . manje kan awk . mak rapat ?
• me     : (smiling) . rapat jugak . tak serapat ayh la :) mama garang sikid je . 
• uncle : (laughing) 
• me     : (smiling)
• uncle : selalu keluar dgn kawan kawan ?
• me     : bole lahh . tak selalu sangat . 
• uncle : ouhh . baguslah , jgn selalu sgt . skrg ni mcm mcm case . bahaya .
• me     : (smiling) baik uncle (laughing)
• uncle : (time dekat simpang nak masuk) okay tukar gear 2 skrg secepatnya .
• me     : (changing)
• uncle : okayy , good . . masuk dgn cantikk sekali .
• me     : (smiling while pusing stering utk masuk cantik cantik)
• uncle : okayy , bagus . tp jgn tepi sangat . masuk longkang jugak ni nanti :)
• me     : (laughing)
• uncle : (stop kat round the board) ehh , stop sini dulu kan .
• me     : ehh , sorry sorry lupa >< while brake emergency -.-
• uncle : haiss , da sampai pun ni tau . kang uncle fail kann nak ? 
• me     : alaaa uncle , sikid lagi nak sampai dpn nii :(
• uncle : okay kalau tak nak , merayu cepat .
• me     : alaaa , tolong laaa . kejap jer ni nak sampai . depan sikid jer nii :(
• uncle : tak nak . sedap sedap sikid :)
• me     : (err , geram betul lah . mengada pulak dia nii -.-) (i pun buat lah suara mengada sikid :)
• uncle : (laughing) tahu takut . da jalan .
• me     : (smiling) thanks .
• uncle : (jalan ke depan sikid) okay dah , stop sini.
• me     : (brake n park dgn cantiknya . hehehe)
• uncle : nahh , amik nii , pergi office tu . ckp dgn pkck tu . 
• me     : okay , thanks uncle .
• uncle : sama sama :) nanti tasha mesti rindu dgn uncle . mesti punya .
• me     : ehh , uncle nii (laughing) yela tuu .
• uncle : iyaaa . tak percaya , tengok mlm nanti)
• me     : (laughing) uncle nii , kelakar laa .
• uncle : (laughing) ehh , uncle nii garang laa . tenogok muka uncle nii .
• me     : welk :P garang lahh sangat . tak langsung while laughing .
• uncle : hahahaha . uncle gurau jer :) okay dah , bye .
• me     : hahahaha . okay , bye ;)
  
  
  
  
  
  nahh , thats all . punya lah pjg kann kami bercerita . hahaha . dari pergi sampai balik bercakap jerr . hais , penat betul layan uncle tuh . btw i his name is : Wan Shaiful Akmal bin Wan Ali (Pegawai Pengangkutan Jalan N22 Jabatan Pengangkutan Jalan Cawangan Muar , Johor) . haha , oh yess , still ingat uncle tu sampai hari ini . memang betul ckp uncle tuh . haha . nice to meet u uncle , btw. okay lahh , stop here . tired already :| bole tercabut jari jemari i nihh youu . hihi . okay , just wait for my new entry , bye2 , mmuuahh ;)